red duh

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 22:08:09 GMT

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before? given birth

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? i dont do those things.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? myself

4. Did anyone close to you die? no one close tome died, but i know a couple of people that passed away this year

5. What countries did you visit? i didnt visit any

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005? a better walk with God

7. What date(s) from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 3-27-05: mine and matt's one year anniversary
4-12-05: i found out i was pregnant
11-12-05: me and Matt got married
12-11-05: my baby girl, Madilynn was born

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? i dont know if its an achievement but, having my baby

9. What was your biggest failure? i dont know

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? i suffered from a lot of emotional problems due to pregnancy and i almost had toxemia

11. What was the best thing you bought? i dont know, my computer. no, a pregnancy test

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? huh?

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? a couple of teens i know

14. Where did most of your money go? doctors visits and bills

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? hmmm, i dont know, could it be that i was pregnant

16. What song will always remind you of 2005? toy story's "you've got a friend" that's what me and matt walked out of wedding to

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier
ii. thinner or fatter? i just had a baby, what do you think
iii. richer or poorer? richer, in many ways

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? sleep

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? work

20. How will you be spending Christmas? i went to my brother and sister-in-laws for christmas

22. Did you fall in love in 2005? everyday i do with matt

23. How many one-night stands? none

24. What was your favorite TV program? i dont know. i got hooked on Desperate Housewives at the end of last season, but i havent really watched any this season.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? no, i dont think so

26. What was the best book you read? ahhhhh,.....i dont think i read any books. if i did i dont remember.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? the new everyday sunday cd

28. What did you want and get? a baby

30. What was your favorite film of this year? i dont think i have one. honestly i dont remember going to watch anything in the theatres

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i think i worked and matt made me a birthday cake. i turned 20

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? i dont think that it could have been

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005? whatever would fit me was fine, considering i was growing every week

34. What kept you sane? My AMAZING church. the same as gabby

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? none really

36. What political issue stirred you the most? hmmm,... i dont think i paid a whole lot of attention to politics this year, but recently its been about how bush broke a law, and i know nothing will happen to him.

37. Who did you miss? Gabby mostly because shes so far away and i needed her alot. but there were people here in town that just got distant from me

38. Who was the best new person you met? A LOT of the people at my church, but specifically, dave and loretta mast and russell and joanie blackwell. they've done so much for us

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005: there was so many

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: i cant think of one

oh BABY

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 06:11:29 GMT

so if madilynn doesnt come by 8 am on saturday, i'm getting induced, so she will most likely be here by sunday for sure! i went to the hospital today because i was having contractions all last night and severe upper abdominal pain. my contractions stopped sometime this morning, but around 8 i was having a big problem breathing this morning and my lungs felt like they were being crushed. so i went to the hospital just to be safe. i finally got out of the hospital around 3. then i went to see my doctor because the one at the hospital told me to. so she said if i dont have my baby by saturday then she will induce me. she asked if wanted to and i told her yes because i am in just so much pain and im so uncomfortable and i'm sick. they say its a little harder when you're induced, but thats ok. at least she'll be out of me. YAY!!!

PRAYER NEEDED!!!!!!!!!

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 23:01:58 GMT

Matt's uncle is missing. he's been missing since last wednesday. he picked up his check from work and no one's heard from him or seeen him. he was hanging around all these bad people and was doing drugs and involved in a gang. he said he wanted out and the only way out was by death. so we dont want to say that's what happened, we're REALLY hoping that's not what happened, but we think that these people took all his money and then they,... i cant even say it. i really hope he is ok. they've already lost an uncle and i know they couldnt deal with another one. please pray for matt's uncle, his name is jimmy. and please pray for his family. thank you.

EDIT: he came home last night and he's fine. not exactly sure what happened though.

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 20:30:18 GMT

i'm at a what??.........

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 21:24:30 GMT

sooo,..... i had a doctors appointment today and she said that i am almost dialated to a 2. you have to get to a 10 in case you didnt know. you could stay there for days and weeks, but she said she's positive i wont go over and that i wont have to be induced. AHHHHHH!!!!!! my grandma and sister think it will be within the next week. i had a pregnant friend at church and on sunday i asked her how far she was dialated, she was due today, and she said she was at a 1. well, she had a baby boy on wednesday, so i could have this thing REEAAAAL soon. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! i REALLY need to get mine and matt's butt into gear and get things together for our baby. OH MY GOODNESS, I'M GONNA BE A MOM!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's finally hitting me!!!! oh man! i gotta go get things ready. bye!

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 05:15:43 GMT

so yeah, i'm married now. WOOHOO!!! i'll put some pictures up later. i've just been trying to recover from the past week. last night wasnt my best night ever either. i got REALLY sick at 4 in the morning. it was everywhere. and then this morning, when matt got up to go to work we found out that someone decided to add a black stripe down the side of the car. yup, someone tagged the thunderbird, the suburban and his step dads police car. thankfully we got it off with some graffiti remover from his work. these people are just after us man. first they threw ranch sauce at the car and it would not come off, then someone stole his car stereo and his fireman radio, then they tagged it. grrrr.

on another note. i love gabby. i miss you.

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 17:53:32 GMT

happy birthday to Sharon

happy birthday to dear Sharon

happy birthday to YOU!!!!

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 23:03:26 GMT

wow. i havent been on in awhile. i just realized that things have changed on here. alot. this way is cool. i can see birthdays to my right. Woo hoo. no more forgetting. its even worse when you are pregnant to try to remember things. i only have like 5 more weeks guys!!! AHHHHH!!!!! i need to make sure i have all the right phone numbers to you all so i can call and tell you when she arrives so email me at redduhlynn@sbcglobal.net thats my new email address. i was getting way too much junk mail in my regular box. its not like i get any emails anyways.

i love family. they're awesome.

we got 2 baby turtles. they're about 2 and 3 weeks old. they're just a little bigger than a 50 cent piece. we named them squirt and dude. the lady we got them from said they dont start to mate until they are about 20 years old. i was like, WOW!! o told my sister-in-law that by that time her child will be having her own kids. she just told me to shut up and she didnt want to think about being called grandma. haha.

will you guys please pray for matt's aunt, her name is beatrice. she has a VERY hard past 2 or 3 months. first her companion Barry passed away, then her parked car got totaled by a drunk driver. he hit it so hard that he completely moved it up onto the side walk. so she doesnt have a car now. then on monday her ex-step son, Rick, had a stroke. he was about 42. he had massive hemorriging in his brain. he went code blue that we know of at least once. they were supposed to fly him to San Fransisco, but something happened on the way ther and they had to land in San Jose. they did 2 opperations on his brain yesterday, they go the bleeding stopped but he's still in critical condition. that's all that we know of right now. But the good news is that when she called a relative of hers up by San Fran to tell him that Rick was on his way up there, she told him all about what has been happening with everything and he said that he has some sort of '99 car that just needs a little work on it and she can HAVE it. She was so excited. he said it was a gift. he was gonna bring it to her soon when he got done with that. She's just had such a hard time lately, we would really appreciate the prayer for her and Rick. thank you.

ok bye.

7 more weeks

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 00:05:24 GMT

for some strange reason. all of the words on my computer are really big. does anybody know why? can you help me please. i've been very tired lately. i miss all the girls at work already. i didnt want to leave this early, but the doctor made me. the ladies i work with in fabrics gave me a surprise baby shower on friday. i got some really cute things. i'm so bored. ok im gonna go find something to do.

bye

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 04:16:34 GMT

today has been one of the longest days i've ever had. i got up at 7:30 to take a shower, then around 9 matt comes to get me. where do we go? to the funeral of the fallen Deputy Kevin Elium. i never really met him, but i went to church with him. i was stood around with a bunch of people from the church that were close to him. one of them being his best friend's wife. she is such an awesome lady. but it was such an awesome funeral. it was beautiful. i tried to help out as much as i could. after the service and graveside thing (which also was really neat. they had 3 police helicopters fly over and then the one left.) we went to the church for the food thing. i was there until a little after 3. i had to go home because i was falling asleep. yeah, i sure was. so i slept until about 5:30, then i got up and ate and then went back to church for wednesday night service. i know it doesnt seem like much of a day, but it was. i'm gonna go now.

bye

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 16:26:27 GMT

ok TODAY i have 2 more months. thank goodnes because this kid is killing my guts. i was up at 5:30 yesterday morning until a little after 7 with horrible pains right bellow/in my rib area. she was sitting up very high and kept kicking me too! What a brat.

Matt went to promise keepers this past weekend. he really enjoyed it. Newsboys was there and he got some really good pictures of the singer. he was right up front. he told me when he got back, "I never knew how scary looking the singer is!" HAHAHA i just started laughing. i told him he should watch their movie Under the Big Top. i want him to watch Extreme Days too. But i cant find anywhere that sells that movie. GURRRR!!!

ok bye

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 19:03:08 GMT

i went to the doctor yesterday and she said everything was fine with me and the baby. only 2 more months!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!! Shes putting me on leave already because i've been swelling a lot lately and she doesnt want me to get toxemia or how ever you spell it. its not a good thing i know that. it can be very harmful to the baby. i dont want to go on leave already, but ina way i do. i'm tired of work. im just tired period! haha. she said the baby will be a tiny baby though.
ok bye for now.

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 04:53:43 GMT

i love you!!!!! i hope you had a wonderful day!!!! so how many years do we have left to dig up that box? are we still waiting 3 or just until you turn 18? i think we should wait for 3 more years. i dont remember. oh well.

So i am now in fabrics. im so happy. i was getting sick of sporting goods. way too much crap went on over there. and its nice back there because one of the "department managers" goes to church with me. i really like her. she's nice. her name is diane. i'm tired. only 3 and a half months left!!! AHHHHH!!!! whoa! she just kicked. she new i was talking about her! haha

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 04:26:11 GMT

so when i went to idaho in june, we, me, matt, his mom and step dad) met a friend of the wedding party. he was originaly from idaho, but moved to new orleans to get a good cooking job, which he did. i started worrying about him the minute i first heard about hurricane katrina. we called matt's step brother, who is the one we met him through to see if he had heard from him and he said he hadnt. he had been trying to get ahold of him but he couldnt. we've been calling every other day to see if he heard something. we were getting kinda worried. then today i walked into the kitchen and matts stepdad is on the phone with matts step brother. i looked at matt and asked if he had heard anything and he looked at me and said that they had finaly heard from him. i was so relieved. he got out and is staying with family somewhere down south. but he cant get anything. he had a bunch of money saved up and he cant even get to it because all the banks are down. he lost EVERYTHING. he lived where it hit the hardest. he has nothing left. i prayed and prayed for his saftey and know i know he is safe. but to think of all those other people who arent. or all those other people who havent heard from family or friends. i couldnt imagine walking into a house when the water has gone and finding lost people. i didnt think about many people being dead until i heard this thing on cnn saying that authorities believe that the people who couldnt leave or didnt think it was going to hit this hard would just go up to their attics or the next story when the water rose to their knees or waist. and once you were up there you were stuck then the water rose even more. i couldnt imagine having to realize that the only choice you had was to die. you couldnt leave. there was no way out. there could be thousands of people in houses like that. i just couldnt imagine. matt wants to go down there to help. i'm know they could use the help. especially him being a firefighter. but i think even if you are a firefighter or a police man, there is not much you could do that a regular citizen could do. if i could i would go down there. but i cant. he cant. he would loose his job. all i can do is pray and i'll continue to do that.

when i was a little girl i never thought anything interesting would happpen in my lifetime like my grandmas. she saw the depression, the invention of many electronic stuff, MANY wars, and the first space shuttle into space. she saw many things. but lo and behold, look whats happened in just a few years, a war 2 big monuments falling to the ground, this catastrophe that just happened. i'm sure thats not the end of it either. its all just happening at once.

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 05:26:12 GMT

the youth at the church i go to are so awesome. Some of em are really on fire for God. I know a few of em would make great pastors. We had youth services tonight. the youth lead the whole thing like regular church, but they do everything from singing to sound board to preaching. i cant remember the boys name that gave the message tonight but he was awesome and funny. He's going through that part of puberty tight now when the voice is changing. and he said something and got really high and he's all "sorry i squeked, but you know how it goes." everyone started laughing. Me and Matt really want to start getting involved with the youth. He talked to Louie and Jessica Vitela tonight about us helping. They're the youth leaders at New Life Center. You know how many wide-eyed looks i get when i say i came from a southern baptist church?!?!!!! its funny, they're all like, "thats a complete opposite change!" i just laugh and say i know.
Matts on a fire call right now. so i'm really bored right now.
please pray for a friend who has really lost it all. i wish i could help in another way but all i can do is pray for that person.
iiiiiiiii think i'm gonna go now
byyyyyyye

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 22:38:50 GMT

i dont know if many of you knew this, but there will be a movie coming out soon about SPC. Daniel Unger's life. Go to www.danielunger.com and click on the link that says A Hero's Love: the Daniel Unger Story to see the trailer. just follow the links to see it. GABBY, i already emailed Mr. Unger and gave him my number to call me when its ready. i plan on getting on for you and sending it to you.

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 05:10:10 GMT

i've been working overnights for the last few days and i feel so sick today. they wanted me to come in tongiht and next week but i told them i couldnt do that. thats WAAAAY to much presure and stressful on the baby.

speaking of baby. i sent a poll to you all and i decided to go with a name not really on the poll. i decided on Madilynn. its a combo of Maddie and Lynn. i just dont know what way im gonna put it. Annalee Madilynn Holt or Madilynn Annalee Holt. Matts family wants it Madilynn Annalee, but its not their baby, its mine and Matt's, so its ultimately gonna be our choice.

i'm gonna go lay down now, because im sick.
please pray for me and the baby

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 23:54:18 GMT

well you cant really see it but that bright yellow part, can you read it? yup that says Annalee. that means its a girl. sorry Alley, and actually alot of you said it was gonna be a boy. haha. we know for sure Annalee is gonna be in the name. but we also thought of Maddie. what do you think sounds better,..... Annalee Maddie Holt,..... or...... Maddie Annalee Holt. i wanna know what you guys think sounds better. well i gotta go. i stink so i gotta go take a shower before church. bye.

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 05:28:22 GMT

i redid my layout. its really cute. go look and leave me a comment. i got it from a community i'm in. i'm glad i finally figured it out. ok i'm gonna go. bye

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 04:48:12 GMT

i just wanted to say that i almost dont have a belly button anymore. yeah, and where i had it pierced from last summer hurts a little and i can now see where the hole was from where it comes out the bottom.

i go for another ultrasound on the 16th so i should be able to tell everyone then what it is. i'm so excited. i wish i could record the baby's heartbeat so i could play it for you guys. its so neat! all i know is that when you all here your baby's heartbeat for the first time, make sure you have a tissue, because it's so awesome actually being able to hear that there really is something inside of you.

i'm very upset with everyday sunday. they have no central or southern california shows in their tour this time. the only one is in quincy, that's way past sacramento. and one of the guys is leaving!!! one of my favorites! when me, michelle, leah and sam went to go see them last year oor the year before( i dont remember) me and michelle shard a smoothie with him.his name is andy. do you remember michelle?
haha, i just remembered the sign that we saw. do you remember leah and michelle? the one where it looked like it said dick lips? hahaha. oh and remember the dentist office that used to be a taco bell? and remember sam almost killing us when he had to swerve really quick to avoid hitting a car in oncoming traffic because sam wasnt looking where he was going?sigh.

ok i'm gonna go. oh bytheway. if any of you haven't noticed when you go into the porterville walmart, the ac isnt working and theyre not gonna fix it. so complain please, maybe they'll listen to the customers. hey wait i'll get the number to the home office(Bentonville) and you guys can call. call a couple of times. you can use your guys many talents of different languages. it's very frustrating trying to work in the heat.

ok now im really gonna go, bye.

oh no wait, please pray for matts health, he's been having problems breathing and his chest has been hurting. he has irregular heartbeats. please pray. thank you.

ok bye

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 03:57:30 GMT

heeeeelloooooooooo.

hahahaha

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 20:01:54 GMT

howmany of these thnigs are true about people in porterville!! my favorite ones have stars by them. you have to read those ones

you might be a redneck if.....

****you spend forty hours a week at walmart, but you don't work there.(i know many people like this, mainly because they're always in my area)
-your knife is sharper than you are
-your tv is on 24 hours a day, 7 days a week
-you were born with a plastic spoon in your mouth
-you fix holes in your truck with duct tape
-people come to your door mistakingly thinking you have an auto salvage business
-there are hubcap windchimes anywhere on your block
-you've ever been accused of lying through your tooth
-your dogs are still chasing your car a mile down the road
-your wedding vows are interrupted by a fistfight
-yourtv remote control is your son, Junior
-you can count to eleven on you fingers
-you work without your shirt on and so does your husband
-you've ever participated in a burp-off
****you buy a police scanner to keep up with your relatives
-your favorite actor is E.T.
-your idea of family planning is figuring out the chain of hand-me downs
-you dated your daddy's current wife in high school
****your car is permanently covered in paw prints
-your wife uses more bleach in her hair than she does in the laundry
-the oil stain in your driveway is bigger than your car
-you've ever learned sometinhg about your momma from a restroom wall
****any of yur living room furniture is inflatable
****you've ever emptied the bed of your truck by driving backward real fast and slamming on your brakes
****you have a full set of salad bowls that all say "Cool Whip" on the side of them
-your favorite pet is edible.
-you've ever had to mow around a refigerator and a bed frame.
-there are four pairs of pants and two squirrels hanging from your clothesline.
****your idea of water conservation is moving your saturday night bath to every other saturday night.
****your fourteen year old smokes in front of her kids
-three generations of your family women are currently breast feeding
-you think wireless communication is yelling across the yard
*********the local ice cream truck gets busted for selling drugs out of it.( this one actully happened here in porterville)

well that was fun.

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 19:21:42 GMT

i went to the doctor yesterday. she said she's pretty sure its a boy now because the heart beat was VERY fast and it was very strong. so he's doing good. yeah i'm convinced now its a boy. not just beacuse of what the doctor says but because when you know, you know. yeah its hard to explain. i felt him move for the first time on wednesday! it was so neat.
*EDIT* she changed the due date again to Dec. 16

nothing else has happened in my life lately. other than my family getting in a HUGE fight. well actually it was my sister-in-laws family, but they're mine too. i realized how much i am happy to have those people in my life. i'm pretty close to some of them.

i adopted a kitty from over at matt's grandmas house. i have to leave it there though. its a smokey gray and is blind in its right eye. its a very loving kitty. i think i'm gonna name it fire. matt's dad and one uncle are fighting with his other unlce. we went over there last night to take his dad to the e.r. beacause his hip was killing him from when he got in that really bad car accident that happened in feb. then matt goes in and i'm outside playing with fire and the other kitties and i hear yelling inside and they tell me to come inside. so i'm in the middle of this big yelling thing and its frusterating. i wanted to go back outside and play with fire. but i didnt. after we left there we went to aaic and i got cinnamon and chocolate raspberry truffle in a waffle cone. it was very yummy!
i'm so bored.

i'm gona go
bye

sometimes i feel i gotta, dun dun, get away

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 19:01:39 GMT

i'm bored. i won't be in an hour though, i have to go to work. YIPEE!!! not. i hate walmart. it used to be one of my favorite stores. i'm ready to go work for target now. haha. i was gonna go apply at home depot, but matt told me not to untill after the baby is born because they do a lot of heavy lifting and hard work. he doesnt want me to strain myself. oh yeah, matt got a job at home depot. if you ever are in the mood to paint your room, go look at home depot's "oops" paint. they sell their messed up paint for $5 a gallon. were talking good paint here people! and for 5 gallons its $10! that's where were getting our paint to paint the room for the baby.

ehhhhhhhhh. i better go get ready for work. i dont wanna.
bye

look!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 03:57:17 GMT

so here's the baby's first picture. right above the spine where there's a little black spot, that's the heart. it was so neat seeing it. you could see the baby move really good. we could see the heart beat, too. it was so awesome. the baby waved to us. the hand is there where i made the mark, but it didn't show up in the picture. only a few more months!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! when the baby gets closer to being here, i need to get phone numbers that i dont have so i can call you guys and tell you, and maybe we'll get a visit. the lady that was doing the sonogram said it was to early to tell waht it was. so we still have to wait a little bit longer to tell what it's gonna be.

i'm gonna go now,
bye!!!!!!!